"Momentary” by Crisosto Apache

 
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a Pinacate beetle crawls away from or proceeds towards 

the middle of the asphalt with no destination of place


like the wide-open grass plains moving at a millennium 

speed with the furthest object the Sangre De Cristo mountains 

moving slower and seeming to stand more still


against this black petroleum stripe of plain moving longer,

also having no destination of place — each object, each perspective 

rotates at fifteen to twenty-five feet intervals causing a winded motion 

of strings attached to the left hand sliding under the utterance 

of musical notes, the music does not last forever nor do the knots 

tied beside fingers, intertwining between fingers, bleeding


the fluid moves water-like in my palm and begins to twitch 

in my hands and face, the movement across the plain progresses 

like the air sweeping across my face

once moving forward, twice fighting back, also not lasting

forever



a peculiar projection through sound finds my ear in a high pitch 

screaming goodbye, gazing back waving, unconditionally


stains of some begotten memory drips down my lap as I remember 

my father, finding him in my old journals soon laid to the new fires 

of that old grey stucco house


next to that house, I found myself in a memory hiding between two old trees 

whose wisdom protected me from those high rising flames

in a heap of recollection my fingers leave streaks of red streams

keeping me from the tears flowing down my cheek into my mouth 

so, I do not forget


traveling faster shifting faster moving this body, 

underneath the wide grass plains moving longer and less still

like the blood in my hands


recalling a moment, a modification in motion wiping the water 

from my face, a recollection lost on mother and father’s face,

the flow within my fingers persists and lasts against the facing 

of the Sangre de Cristo and Santa Fe is only thirty miles away


 
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About Crisosto Apache
(x) Gender Nonconforming

Crisosto Apache is originally from Mescalero, New Mexico (US), on the Mescalero Apache Reservation, currently lives in the Denver metro area in Colorado. Cris is Mescalero Apache, Chiricahua Apache, and Diné (Navajo) of the 'Áshįįhí (Salt Clan) born for the Kinyaa'áanii (Towering House Clan) and is Assistant Professor of English at the Rocky Mountain College of Art + Design. Cris holds an MFA from the Institute of American Indian Arts in Santa Fe, New Mexico. Cris is also the Associate Poetry Editor for The Offing Magazine. Crisosto’s debut collection GENESIS (Lost Alphabet) stems from the vestiges of memory and cultural identity of a self-emergence as language, body, and cosmology.

http://crisostoapache.com/
@crisosto_apache

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